The spiritual meaning of the lunar eclipse that took place on May 15th, 2022 is letting go of things in your life that have expired and have bene holding onto for whatever reason. Admittedly, I have been holding onto a lot of things that I haven’t let go of for a number of reasons. So the night of the lunar eclipse I made a vow to myself to let those things go because now is the time to let go of old expectations, anxieties, and more.
The first thing I let go of was my exact expectations for my life. I had always thought that by the time I was thirty I would have a career, I would have my own place, and I would be married with at least one child. I’m almost thirty-one with none of those things. Recently, I’ve come to realize how much setting that expectation for myself has caused me anxiety and heartbreak, especially being almost thirty-one with not a single one of those expectations met. I put so much pressure on myself to have those things, and all it has done is made me worse about myself. So now, I’m letting go of that failed expectation and trying not to put anymore on myself in regards to these topics. It won’t be easy, but I need to do it for the sake of my mental health.
The second thing I let go of (or should I say in the progress of letting go of) is my constant anxieties over when I will get pregnant and become a mom. All the tests my doctor ordered for me came back with clear results. There is nothing wrong with me. She did tell me that there was one more test she could order for me called an Hysterosalpingography, or HSG test for short, but she doesn’t feel it is necessary at this time.
Honestly, when she told me nothing was wrong, I was stunned. I had fully expected for them to find something wrong with me, for me to have a clear answer as to why I have never been pregnant… and there was nothing. It was a weird feeling and I know I should have been overjoyed, and on some level I was, but I felt more confused than anything. It has been two weeks since that appointment and I notice that when it comes to the topic of pregnancy and children, I don’t have as much anxiety as I did before. I mean, I would still like to have a child before I’m 35, but for right now I’m not stressing about it the way I was before. One way or another it will happen. I will be a mother and have a child of my own or one I adopted.
The third and final thing I let go of was a situation with an employer that turned out to be a giant scam. To make a very long and complicated story short, I had been hired by a company to write articles for them. I had provided them with three quality articles before asking when I would receive payment for my articles. They said their pay cycle was every two weeks, and that’s when the games started. Two weeks went by, no pay. I messaged them, they came up with an excuse, asked me to be patient, and I said OK, but that I wouldn’t write another article until I received payment for the prior articles… and this went on for about 4-5 months with excuse after excuse as to why my payment was delayed. They kept coming up with crazy excuses and obstacles, all the while saying they appreciated my work, I would be paid, blah, blah, blah.
I never received compensation for those articles. Those articles haven’t been published on any website. And they got nothing from me. I did spend $75 on a drug test (which they said was company policy for all employees and I didn’t argue), but that money didn’t even go to them! So really, what did they get from facade? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. The whole thing was completely ridiculous and the fact that they kept this facade up for 4-5 months blows my mind. Why didn’t they cut contact when they realized they wouldn’t get any money from me? I don’t understand it, but I don’t need to understand it. This situation honestly served no purpose for anybody involved, and I’m not going to be a part of it anymore.
But I’m putting the warning out- If you or anyone you know is messaged by Twitter about working for a company called EnergyCitizens, immediately block and report the person. This is the company that they were pretending to be. And the specific people who scammed me are now trying to scam under the guise of a company called Pure Flix. I called the real Pure Flix today and let them know a scam was starting under their name and to put the word out on their social medias about it. I don’t know whether they will or not, but I feel good knowing that I at least warned them.
But I can’t dwell on this situation anymore. I just need to let this situation go and let karma and the Universe take it from here. Unfortunately it seems like scammers like to prey on freelance writers, so from here on out I need to approach every single opportunity with a lot of caution unless it comes from a trusted source.
So these are the three main things I’m letting go of as the result of the lunar eclipse. I am ready for positive changes and better opportunities to come my way. I am actively working toward and also manifesting at the same time the life I want for myself. As I will it, so shall it be.
What things have you let go of recently? I would love to know! I hope everyone has an enjoyable week!